Own It

So, here's the thing about growing up; aging, one hopes she is actually attaining some wisdom. You hope that your collective experiences from joy to utter heartbreak have made you stronger without being bitter. You pray that you won't make the same mistakes, cling to the past, or feel "stuck" when it comes to personal growth and progress. For me, I struggle with a myriad of "issues", but I am proud to say, I am excellent at "owning it". It being all my shit. See, I am introspective, and probably altogether way too critical of myself.  But, this allows me to truly study myself. I do it too often, and should do it more like a periodic audit. However, I just can't resist the urge to reflect. I wouldn't say that I am self centered, but I am definitely someone who believes we are here to learn. That includes learning about oneself. The good, the bad, and the ugly. The dark and the light.

Want to know what's irritating beyond my scope of patience? People who don't own their shit. Seriously, how can some people live their lives being the victim and pointing out everyone else's stuff while never claiming their own? And, it's always clear as day that they are carrying baggage way too heavy for themselves. You would think they'd want to lighten their load even if that means being accountable for some of their own choices, deficiencies, and happily taking credit for their greatness. Right?

Here I am full circle, back to me. I canvass my triggers, my flaws, my weaknesses, and hopefully my strengths as well. And, after I beat myself up for my inadequacies, I take a deep breath and work harder at being kind to myself. That's more of a challenge than it seems. Here's the great news, I owned my shit for the day, took stock, and can start fresh the next morning with some new found knowledge, and a tiny bit of wisdom.